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It has been a few months since my CG move over to Expo. Off and on I blog about my duty reflections on my blog. So far I have been adopting well into Expo environment. Everything have to start all over again not only in my ministry but also within my CG. There are pros and cons about moving to Expo. For the pros is traveling time has been reduce and I can spend more time with my CG since in Expo I’m serving alternate week. And needless to say I can spend more time with my family. But I really miss JW people. I miss those times when we “chui” together. Group 2 people was really great, they really try their best to make me feel welcome. And I really feel welcome. And slowly I began to enjoy serving once again. But some times I feel that I can do better in Expo. But I just don’t understand why I just simply can’t meet my own expectation. Maybe I just need to learn how to handle disappointment. Jia you bah Li zhi !

Am I on the right track ?

Again one week as past as usual. I did something different some thing different for the past one week. As I have mention I can’t believe that I love to work. At least I have some thing to kill my time. But at the same time I feel so tired and no longer have the strength to move on in the spiritual ramp. But God is good, he did not give up on me. Or maybe he knows that I have experience him before and I know that He is real that’s why I didn’t leave his presence. At times when I feel like giving up God will always remind me on my first experience I had with him. And that experience became a source of strength for me. I want to become a better person yet in order to become a better person the first thing I have to do is to go through different situation. I always find hard to adopt to a total new things or maybe I’m used to old things. It’s not easy for me to let go and allow God to take charge of my life, in fact it is really hard cause for the past 19 years I had a mindset that I can control my fate. But after 19 years then I realise that that’s not true, I’m where I’m is because God had given me the chance to try out different things. But some times I face disappointment. I hate myself for not being able to meet my expectation. I just don’t understand why and I will tend to be emo one side. Some thing bad I need to change bit by bit. But can I complete my purpose on earth ? I feel that I’m too weak to do so. God please help me.

Back to something real today, service duty. Took the same position as last duty but I feel that I can do so much better.   In the past I can handle bigger zone and I can run why can I do the same thing now ? Why why why why ?????? Sigh ! God am I on the right track ?

Updates

This past one week I have been working as usual. But one thing I can’t believe, I begin to fell in love with my current work. It may be boring and tiring but yet with a bunch of fun people around me I won’t feel bored at all. Not only that, as time passes by I realise that they are a bunch of fun people to hang out with. I no longer drag myself to work but now I’m looking forward to work. I’m just happy. Any way some special things happen today. I just don’t understand why. OK, this is what happen. There is a loan shark pour paint on my door step. And how will they forget about they chance to “decorate” the well. But the funny thing is this, on the well it is written “O$P$ #03-52 HP no” and my unit number is #03-48. See the difference ? So made a police report and the police recorded my statement. I just don’t understand, can’t they see clearly my unit number. Sigh !

For the past one week ~~~~~

Hello every one !!! I’m back here to update about my life for the past one week. Again I did not update my blog as frequently as the past. So are you wondering what happen to me ? Well, I have “completed” my job there at PA. And since monday my attachment start. So now I’m still working but at a different location. Now I’m currently working at Prima (HQ). I had been allocated to production area. Something I never expect. All along I wanted to go into lab environment for my attachment. But things still don’t turn out something I desire. For the past one week I have been wiping Laska pre mix pack and I really wonder what can I learn from this. Can’t really deny that I’m worried because my attachment weightage is 10 credits of my over all module. Am I able to get my “A” ? But thank God for placing different people in my life to encourage me up and give me different advise. And slowly I realise that there are still things for me to learn. This may not the things that I really want but I realise that this is something different. So keep on moving !!! Jia you !

Last day

Today marks the last day of my “office” work. YAPPIE !!!! Finally I have end my work over here at PA. Some of you might catch me over at facebook making different comments. One of such comments is “Office work just don’t suit me” which is so true. I just can’t sit in office the whole day neither can I be a OL (office lady). So till now I still believe that I belong to the lab. I just love running up and down. But I can’t deny that the pay here is good So all in all it’s worth it. Bye bye office work, hello Prima

Logis duty @ Expo (part 2)

Yesterday I had my 2nd Logis duty at Expo. Well, not much surprise I recieve as compared with my first duty at Logis at Expo. Reached late for duty and even though I was there but I did not attend service. There are always room for improvment and there is always more to learn. Really thank God for placing different leader’s in my life. Sometimes I ask God why he is determine to move me to a total new environment. Yet I hear nothing. I thought God will never give me an answer which is true. God showed me instead. He know that I won’t listen to him so the only way to make me change is to “force” me. When I go through the process I really gramble alot. Looking back now I realise that it is a learning process and moulding process for me. Leader’s who never give up on me, leader’s who keep beliving in me. All in all they mould me and they made me to who am I today. Back to Logis duty yesterday I learn so much and first time in my life I have to closing all by myself. Back in JW I never doing closing by myself before.There will always a upper study to close and I play the role as assistant. In conclution what I can say is that there is always more room for improvement. But is it true that when I don’t smile I look stress ? Hmm …. No idea but I will try to smile more, it’s a promise from me. Slowly I begain to fell in love with Expo

*Smiling*

Working life

Weekdays this is my time table.

7am to 7.30am – Wake up and prepare for work
7.30am-8.40am – Travel to work (Inclusive of squeezing in MRT)
8.40am to 9am – Reach office, switch on the com log in to my E mail
9am to 1pm – Work
1pm to 2 pm – Lunch time
2pm to 6pm – Work
6pm to 6.15pm – Send in report and knock off
6.15pm to 9pm – Dinner with friends/family
9pm to 10.30pm – Go back home bathe and KO

And the next day the whole sequence start again. Boring right ? Sitting in office facing the computer whole day long.

Working life

Some of you may wonder where am I ? Ha ha … I believe I have gone MIA. didn’t blog for 1 week plus. Well here is a little update so far. So far I’m having my holidays right now. In fact my holiday started 1 week ago at the same time I have start working here in PA. The environment is totally different as compared to the past. Sad. Seriously don’t really feel happy working over here. Anyway doesn’t matter to me anyway cause I’m leaving 2 weeks later. So no matter what just work. Thank God there is some thing for me to look forward to. My attachment. Woots !!! I have been attach to Prima but the sad thing is my allowance has been reduce alot. Sad sad. And I have re borned my hair. Yuppie… I have straight hair again. Anyway, won’t have mush time to update anymore, need to start working now. And seriously I need to get use to my working life now. Cause I’m so called a working “adult” from now all the way till next year. Welcome to the working world Christina …

The story of Jonah

Today Pst.Kong share one of this book in the bible. The book of Jonah. As I hear Pst interpret this book I realise that my life is more or less like Jonah.

In Jonah 1:1-3

¹The word of the LORD came to Jonah son of Amittai: ² “Go to the great city of Nineveh and preach against it, because its wickedness has come up before me.” ³ But Jonah ran away from the LORD and headed for Tarshish. He went down to Joppa, where he found a ship bound for that port. After paying the fare, he went aboard and sailed for Tarshish to flee from the LORD. 
~ I can’t deny the fact that there are times when God ask me to do certain things go certain places but I just simply go away from God. ~

In Jonah 2:1-2

¹ From inside the fish Jonah prayed to the LORD his God. ² He said:
       “In my distress I called to the LORD,
       and he answered me.
       From the depths of the grave ^[a] I called for help,
       and you listened to my cry.
~ Jonah expect God to do this and that for him. Sometimes in my prayer to God is all about my needs and want. ~

In Jonah 2:3-8

 ³ You hurled me into the deep,
       into the very heart of the seas,
       and the currents swirled about me;
       all your waves and breakers
       swept over me.

 ⁴ I said, ‘I have been banished
       from your sight;
       yet I will look again
       toward your holy temple.’

 ⁵ The engulfing waters threatened me, ^[b]
       the deep surrounded me;
       seaweed was wrapped around my head.

 ⁶ To the roots of the mountains I sank down;
       the earth beneath barred me in forever.
       But you brought my life up from the pit,
       O LORD my God.

 ⁷ “When my life was ebbing away,
       I remembered you, LORD,
       and my prayer rose to you,
       to your holy temple.

 ⁸ “Those who cling to worthless idols
       forfeit the grace that could be theirs.
~ Instead of praying to God I’m complaining to God. Ask him why he allow bad things happen to me. All I think about is the unfairness and not the lesson God want’s me to learn behind every situation that had happen. One thing I have learnt, anything that don’t destroy you will make you a stronger person. Don’t ask why but ask who is God.~

Jonah 2:9-10

⁹ But I, with a song of thanksgiving,
       will sacrifice to you.
       What I have vowed I will make good.
       Salvation comes from the LORD.”

 ¹⁰ And the LORD commanded the fish, and it vomited Jonah onto dry land.
~ In our normal day life all friends don’t look for expensive present but a sincere present that represent them. Same thing applies towards the bible concept. In the worse of time a song of thanksgiving God really tresure it. That’s what he is looking for. ~

So on and so forth ~ I’m not going to type out the whole sermon notes I had too long to type it out. Today I had been ministered by God. So many times I come before God with a face mask on even though I know that God know’s us inside out. Times when I feel angry and unfair but kept all in my heart. Cause I don’t dare. Even before Pst lay hands on me I can sense the strong presence of God. I teared in his presence. And I tell God, even though I don’t know what is going to happen next but I’m sure that if he throw trials to us he will make sure that you can pull through. Some times when you feel like giving up always remember that there is a greater plan for you.